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All I wanted was the world by pikku-hiiri, literature

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All I wanted was the world

I wanted everything with you. To wake up one morning, and see your sleeping face and know that from that moment on, your freckles would be the first thing I saw on all my mornings. To go on adventures, holding your hand while sitting on the roof of our van and exclaiming over beautiful things, then looking at you and realising I’ve already seen the peak of beauty. To kiss you, and know that your lips will be the last to ever touch my own. To experience that breathless moment, hanging like gossamer between us, right before the “yes”. To sign that stupid piece of paper, that nevertheless means so much, bec

And so I burn by pikku-hiiri, literature

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And so I burn

Love strangles me. My heart Creeps, scratching, up my throat Seeking release, To hang itself From my impotent tongue. What use are words anyway? What use my love now, Turned to acid That drills holes, Sizzling and weeping Through my chest. I wait, I wait, I wait. I hold on to a hope, Too bright, It shears the sight from my eyes And flays me, Laying me out Broken and naked beneath it. I pull on layers of gauzy dreams, Hiding the cracks in my seams, Where I'm tearing myself apart. Smiling And smiling. It's ok, It's ok. I'd do it all again, You're worth the pain.

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I will wait you for

The best things in the world Aren't easy. It's a cliche, I know. But it's true. The roads to the most interesting places Are potholed, Bumpy, Dusty And uncomfortable. But you reach your destination And the view makes the discomfort Worth it. So I will wait. And wander Down this ill-kept path. I will watch the flowers Bloom and die, I will watch the trees Shed their leaves and fruit And grow green again. I will count the strands of grey As they appear in my locs, And measure the depth of the lines As they arrive Around my eyes. I will hold on To the memory of your skin against mine, And your lips against my ear, Your voice breathing love. I

Don't tell me I'm ok by pikku-hiiri, literature

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Don't tell me I'm ok

My whole world Crashing Down around my ears, And all you can do is Fucking Laugh. "It’s schadenfreude, bitch. Nothing I can do. You gotta help yourself." Help myself? Ok. I get up in the mornings When I feel like leaving my bed Might kill me. Sometimes I even get dressed Even though the seams of jeans Scraping against my thighs Is like a subtle, silent torture. Reminding me Of the scars they sit against. Even though the necessity Of removing my shirt Makes me want to peel off My skin along with it. Because it doesn’t fit Has never fitted Feels so wrong. Wrong. Wrong. I help myself Every time I take a bite of food, Ignoring the v

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Green

I am jealous of your life before. Of all the fingers that have touched you, And the ears that have heard you say “I love you.” I am jealous Of all the parts of you I will never know, Of all the years that I didn’t play a part in, Of all the smiles that I didn’t cause. I know I have no right to be, I cannot claim every piece of you, I cannot deny you a history, I cannot be your everything. But god knows, I want to be. Because what if those ghosts of fingers Still touch you? What if you still hear the echoes Of “I love you”s that tripped from tongues Other than mine? What if all those smiles, Half remembered,

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Bones

I’m slipping again. I can hear them. Whispered admonishments, Echo in my head… Louder and louder, As I feel fuller and fuller, All my spaces filled with shadows, And the demons start to creep, Clawing up my throat And through the cuts in my skin. I can’t control the chaos, My hands are sliding on the reins, I wish that I could ask for help, But they won’t let me. I don’t recognise the face I see, Staring from the mirror, It’s pale, empty, An ill-formed shell, A weak and cracked container For this maelstrom, My hell. They’re scratching at my skin again, Make it stop, make it stop. My bones are break

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Artist // Hobbyist // Varied

Oct 30, 1987
United Kingdom
Deviant for 19 years
www.facebook.com/loveanddreamsphotography
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I live in a slightly rubbish corner of Yorkshire, just muddling along trying not to lose myself in the haze of reality.

Favourite Movies

What Dreams May Come, But I'm a cheerleader, Hannibal

Favourite TV Shows

Charmed, TNG: The Next Generation

Favourite Books

Kushiel's Dart

Favourite Writers

Scarlett Thomas, Garth Nix, Jacqueline Carey

Favourite Games

Skyrim

Favourite Gaming Platform

xbox 360

Tools of the Trade

Nikon D200 or D40 with 50mm 18-55mm lenses

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pikku-hiiri

Nov 30, 2014

So recently...

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I haven't been doing a whole lot of photography for myself recently. I've been doing a bit of writing and a bit of wedding photography, as well as crocheting xmas presents, but mostly I've just been getting bogged down in the day job! But anyhoo, I decided to submit a few of my wedding photos, because why not? :)

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pikku-hiiri

Dec 21, 2012

Spikey...

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Love isn't brains, children, it's blood. Blood screaming inside you to work its will. I may be love's bitch, but at least I'm man enough to admit it.

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pikku-hiiri

Dec 4, 2012

shhh...

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"I feel like I'm indulging in a kind of slow self-destruction at the moment, every secret action shredding away a layer of myself, every errant thought adding a weak spot. I wonder what happens when all the layers have been peeled away… they must be finite after all, I can't continue on this fucked up road forever… soon I'll be exposed, raw and sensitive and completely vulnerable… totally unprotected. It amuses me to think on it. After all these years of building my walls, it's strangely satisfying to pull them down again; it's like the adrenaline rush you get from doing something dangerous and stupid, like playing chicken on a busy road… you